first week at work

well, i finally finished one week at work. phew. i guess it's ok. kinda mixed feelings about it.

for those who don't know. i'm working for a marketing company, juice/dynamic asia marketing. in nice words, i'm a marketing agent. in not so nice way, i'm a door to door salesgirl. sigh. actually...how to explain the job...well, the main client is scotts 37 cafe. celebrating their anniversary. i think they're trying to raise awareness of their cafe so they're offering this privilege card. the $10 for the card, part goes to the promised land missions. which is juice's adopted charity. so no matter what, juice will give promised land $60000. but i think they trying to offset this cost by selling the card. don't know the working behind the system tho.

let's go through my first week. first day was not too bad. went out with ryan's team. sold one booklet. good thing. learnt a lot from ryan and joanne. duh, i mean, he's the one who started teaching me the pitch etc. then didn't see him for the rest of the week. MIA lah. but he called the first 2 days to ask how my sales went. sweet. i heard that he's coming back on mon. joanne was the one who took me around and guided me on my first day. rescuing me whenever i met chinese speaking aunties. my chinese just cannot make it lah.

then went with desmond. also taught me a lot. seriously. cos that day was pure advertising. no more charity. some problems with authorisation. so i was real depressed cos we went to so many blocks already and not even one sale. wanted to cry. and it was raining so hard, we had to stop selling. he was trying to cheer me up, motivating me on.

then, with ashley and siti. not bad. again, ashley was great at trying to cheer me up, cos i was so depressed from the day before. i was so depressed that even when i was queueing up to buy lunch, i so felt like crying. going out with shawn next day was great. showing me how we can have fun on the field as well. can't say exactly what fun on the field we had in case alfred or lee reads this. me and shawn would be in shit. but we did do our work that day lah. (btw, alfred is the ceo of juice asia and lee is the head of dynamic asia. want to know more, ask me.)

today going with kenneth and vishnu. went to private estate. that's why i'm so sunburnt today. great day today. got back the charity letter so can use a bit of charity when trying to get people to part with their money. of course there were some idiots who just don't want to give. crazy. can't understand them. we were at 6th avenue area. rich man area. some idiots can't bear to even part with $10. curse and swear. but definately learnt a bit about making multiple sales. someone signed a check for $50 for me. vishnu was really good. his first day and already he managed to sell one full booklet in one sale. woah.

saw goh chok tong's house today. bloody big sia. omg! even got sentry guards, barbed wire and surveillance cameras there. we were saying, we should ask if we can knock there. surely can clear all our booklets. :D but don't think the sentry will even let us through the door. not even sure if goh chok tong is in singapore.

so ya. despite all the horrible torture, it's actually quite fun. get to meet all sorts of people. if working the blocks made me lose all hope in human nature, working the pte estates helped to regain a little bit of that hope. i do have fun on the job, on the field. i love the company. it's just so dynamic and fun. energy is so high. learnt so much about communication and stuff. pushing myself out of my comfort zone, especially after making a sale, feels so great. i mean, if you told me before this that i'll be knocking on people's doors (literally. some people have no door bells) and yelling to people from the gate, i'll say you're crazy. and yet, i'm doing this every freaking day. nuts.

but. the downside is that it's really difficult and can get so depressing if no one wants to buy. and it's tiring. imagine climbing around the HDB blocks everyday. average of 15 floors and 6-12 houses on each level. tiring. and supposed to end work at 6.30pm. yes, end work. then go back to the office to return the money, id tags, ticket stubs...by that time 7 plus already. by the time get home, easily 8. sigh. really tired. i worked all this week, i only earned $30. i'm paid on commission. no sale, no pay. sigh. and duan hui's not doing on weekdays anymore. just saturdays. so i'll not exactly have company. not that i had her company on the field anyway. company would never team me up with her.

but, i tell you, i'm gonna quit sooner or later. i think that i'll finish this week, get my pay and disappear. it'll be a relief. but at the same time, i wonder if i'm cheating myself of a great chance at doing something with myself. i mean, like ashley told me, the larger part of your mind tells you to quit, get another job...but there's this little part of your mind that tells you that maybe you can overcome this challenge, maybe you can do it. that's kinda why i'm still considering when i wanted to quit. actually i wanted to tell lee that i'm leaving today. but... and i do love the company culture. :D

clifford just told me that his company's doing recruiting. maybe i'll try out. but i'll hang on to dynamic for this week and see how. but i definately will quit by the end of april. can't take it anymore. too tiring.